Hi :D

I got ready for church too quickly. So… I have time to kill! πŸ˜€ And thanks to all of you for not updating. πŸ˜› … I’m so obsessed. πŸ™ Ooh this is a good song… ‘Pushin’ the Sky’ from Cowboy Bebop. πŸ˜€ Yeah… I like the lyrics to Utada Hikaru’s ‘Final Distance:’

Even though I worry about it, I can’t ask
I’m tired of swimming, and even you have become shy

I want to see you, but I never can, waves push us apart
Again, just a little more distance

We can’t dismiss this if we want to keep it going baby
If you don’t feel the same then tell me
Even if you see only the slightest chance,
Then it’s okay to try for the big celebration

I want to be with you now
Believe in us together through the distance

Now is the time
We can start over
Because I don’t want to be alone
One day, even the distance
Will embrace me, but I’ll get used to it
Because after all, I wanna be with you

Can a single word hurt this much?
Teach me loneliness and then come back to me

You can’t stop the time, keep on trying baby
I can’t promise but, trust me
Even if you see only the slightest chance,
Then it’s okay to try for the big celebration

I wanna be with you now
Fix your eyes on us in through the distance

Now is the time
We can start over
Because I don’t want to be alone
Say it in words
One day, even the distance
Will embrace me, but I’ll get used to it
Because after all, I wanna be with you

I wanna be with you now
Coz I know this can’t be forever
We can start over, just you and me
I wanna be with you now
Coz I know this can’t be forever
We should stay together, just you and me
I wanna be with you

I should be reading Psych.

…as I am 2 chapters behind with a test on Friday. Instead: lyrics.

AT MY MOST BEAUTIFUL
R.E.M (Up)

I’ve found a way to make you
I’ve found a way
a way to make you smile

I read bad poetry
into your machine
I save your messages
just to hear your voice
you always listen carefully
to awkward rhymes
you always say your name
like I wouldn’t know it’s you,
at your most beautiful

I’ve found a way to make you
I’ve found a way
a way to make you smile

at my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes secretly
with every one, whisper I love you
I let you sleep
I know your closed eye watching me,
listening
I thought I saw a smile

I’ve found a way to make you
I’ve found a way
a way to make you smile

Kissing You
Des’ree

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cry

Heaving hard is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching
‘Cause I’m kissing you, oooh
I’m kissing you, oooh

Touch me deep, pure and true
Give to me forever
‘Cause I’m kissing you, oooh
I’m kissing you, oooh

Where are you now
Where are you now
‘Cause I’m kissing you

“Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I came here to talk
I hope you understand
The green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you
I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter now I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
Green eyes

Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know

The green eyes, you’re the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who tried to deny you, must be out of their mind
Because I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter since I met you
Honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
Green eyes, green eyes”

“Just let me have a cry…”

Yeah for guard. Speaking of which, we had a show yesterday and it was fantablulous because we placed first, with the highest score of the night for the second time in a row. Our score improved by like… I dunno how many points. But it did – 80.3. Even if I did drop. πŸ™ Everyone said it wasn’t noticable, but I don’t believe them. Damn my paranoia…! The program had pictures of us on almost every page, it was awesome hehe. Nothing Special! [actually Nick’s mom] put in an ad for The Groupies… it was very cute. Once I fix my scanner I’ll scan it and post it on the Groupies’ Website.

I like Kina. She’s the artist who sings our guard song, “Have a Cry.” I like “I love you” better though, I’m trying to find the mp3 now. I heard “I Love You” on her website, but it’s a .ram and the quality is poo. I have lyrics! πŸ˜€

Kina
I Love You

I don’t get the question, baby
I don’t get the question
Are you askin’ if I love you
Are you saying you don’t now by now
You should never wonder, baby
You should never wonder
Cause I need you more than ever
We will always be together, yeah

You control my heart
Feel you in the very air that I breathe
You’re such a man, I need you with me
And when the world seems hard
You protect me like a man does a child
With them big ol’ arms

Oh, no, you don’t ever have to wonder
You’re my knight in shining armor
You’re my heart, I’m proud to say
I love ya, I love ya, I need ya
I wanna spend forever, together, my partner
Can’t live a day without ya
I love ya, I need ya
I wanna spend forever, together, leave never
Can’t live a day with

I can see the say we met
I can see it clearly the first day of my new life
I knew I would be your wife, yeah
Always heard of love at first sight
Thought it was kinda silly
How could love shine on a stranger
Love comes on a little stronger

Oh, no, cupid shot me with that arrow
I could barely catch my breath
Cupid scared me half to death
Oh, yes, you came runnin and enslaved me
With the love no other man could ever give me

I wanna say
I love ya, I love ya, I need ya
I wanna spend forever, together, my partner
Can’t live a day without ya
I love ya, I need ya
I wanna spend forever, together, leave never
Can’t live a day without ya
I love ya

Oh, no, you don’t ever have to wonder
You’re my knight in shining armor
You’re my heart, I’m proud to say
I love ya, I need ya, I love ya
I wanna spend forever, together, my partner
Can’t live a day without ya
I love ya, I need ya
I wanna spend forever, together, leave never
I love ya, ooh
I love ya, I need ya

Speaking of lyrics, I’ve been going on a lyrics binge lately, no? Also as I type this it occurs to me that I have terrible typing style. I haredly use my pinky and ring fingers, in addition to my thumb. It’s almost all the middle and pointer fingers. But it gets the job done. Yay for stupid and useless facts!

I empathize with the poem on Vanessa’s blog. *hughug* Ne I heart you. πŸ™‚

Today is the Tea party, Yayyy. I don’t know what I’m wearing still. I don’t want to wear my tinkerbell outfit, it’s too cold. πŸ™ I need to run some errands before I go… bleh. What the fuck is that smell? It’s making me sick… Damn mom and her cleaning…

I hate not having a car. I wish I didn’t have guard so I could get a job and get one. –; Mom said that she thinks Dad is waiting to see if I get into Irvine or not, so I can decide which school I’m going to. If I go to Davis, I’ll need a new car. If I go to Irvine, I can get a used one since Dad can help me maintain a used one that is more inclined to have problems. I want to go to Irvine… *cry* I know I’m not asian but please let me in. πŸ™

mood: Neutral. o_o
song: “I Love You” by Kina.

Whaddya know… another post…

I really should be studying for english essay on Thursday. I really am going to fail it, and I know and recognize this fact, yet I am not compelled to study for it. Why, god, why?! So I sit here and blog instead.

Vanessa called my deep thoughts blog a “god blog.” How appropriate and funny. πŸ™‚

mood: Stressed yet lazy. >< ;;
song: “Rocket Man” – Elton John

“She packed my bags last night pre-flight
Zero hour nine a.m.
And I’m gonna be high as a kite by then
I miss the earth so much I miss my wife
It’s lonely out in space
On such a timeless flight

And I think it’s gonna be a long long time
Till touch down brings me round again to find
I’m not the man they think I am at home
Oh no no no I’m a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone

Mars ain’t the kind of place to raise your kids
In fact it’s cold as hell
And there’s no one there to raise them if you did
And all this science I don’t understand
It’s just my job five days a week
A rocket man, a rocket man”
~elton john, “rocket man”

Song of the entry

“You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken
But I swear in the days still left
We’ll walk in the fields of gold”
~sting, “fields of gold”

Fly me to the Moon

Added my colorguard instructor’s melo over there… it seems weird that I should be reading about her personal life, but then again she’s only a year older than me, so I don’t let it bother me too much. :]

Just got back from going to LA with Mike and Maz! It was sooo much fun! We drove out to UCLA, picked Greg up, and went to In-N-Out… yum. Then we went to this store called Anime Gamers [?]. They had some cute stuff, but it was all expensive. Saw cute Di Gi Charat wallet that I wanted. πŸ™ Looking for all items on the internet presently. πŸ™‚

Thursday I went to anime club and watched Slayers Next, that was funny. Met Mike after baseball and went to Jack in the Box for a snack. I didn’t get to see him after school on Wednesday πŸ™ [Damn play/guard…!!]. Tomorrow we’re going to the movies with Kevyn and Nick to see… Chicago! Then Mike is coming over here and we’re going to play Contra/watch tv and hang out I suppose? He duped me into helping him teach Sunday school at his church… Boo. I’ll do it though since I’m so loving and devoted. πŸ™‚ And I have no homework this weekend so I don’t have anything better to do. πŸ™‚

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On a-Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, in other words
I love you

Today is Saturday! Even though Alison called yesterday and woke me at the God-awful hour of 9 am, asking about my vacation and promising to go out this weekend, we didn’t. I called her today and she never called back! Poo on her πŸ˜› Yesterday I went to Mike’s house and watched some anime, played DDR, went to the park and played toss the football/frisbees around. I threw the football into the bushes and muddied my shoes up trying to get it back. Oops. ^^; Maz, Cliff and Joanna also came. Fun times in the Mike-mobile as well, we rocked out to that “Yes we Can” song from Moulin Rouge, hehe.

Today I sat around on my ass all day. :D! I played some FFX [after I replaced it, my old copy stopped working –;]. We went to get Chinese for dinner [yum yum in the tum!]. I also did some religion homework! Yay for me ^^;

I’m really enjoying my break… once I get back to school, I’ll be so busy! Guard, Cinderella, anime club… help!

I finished downloading the first .hack//sign soundtrack. Mhm! I got the urge to download “Eyes On Me” from FFVIII. Not sure why… lots of memories [most not so good] attached to it.

“Eyes on Me”
Theme to Final Fantasy VIII
Vocals: Faye Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You’d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you’re never hurt
As if you’re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you’re holding back
Or pain if that’s what it is
How can I let you know
I’m more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you’re not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you’re never hurt
As if you’re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then I will know
that you are no dreamer

Enjoy the Silence
Depeche Mode

Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Can’t you understand
Oh my little girl

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Enjoy the silence